Defining (Multiple) Selves: Stories from the Field

• Main Author: HOON, Chang Yau
• Format: text
• Language: English
• Published: Institutional Knowledge at Singapore Management University 2005
• Subjects: Asian Studies
• Online Access: https://ink.library.smu.edu.sg/soss_research/840; https://ink.library.smu.edu.sg/context/soss_research/article/1839/viewcontent/Life_Writing.pdf
• Institution: Singapore Management University

The ‘Self’ in late-modernity is never singular but multiplies across different discourses, practices and positions. It is constructed through difference. It is only through a relation to the ‘Other’ that the ‘Self’ can be defined. This paper endeavours to map the endless negotiations of my ‘Self’ as male Australian academic of Chinese descent, a Malaysian citizen, a Bruneian resident, and an Indonesian specialist, over a period of fieldwork in Jakarta in 2004. It discusses how I defined my multiple ‘Selves’ to different individuals and communities, how they in turn defined me, and how these constructions were always shifting. Depending on the situation, it was my Australian ‘Self’ that defined me, or my Chinese, or Malaysian, or Bruneian, or even a local Indonesian ‘Self’ acquired over the period of fieldwork. Using the practice of self-reflexivity, this paper problematises the various dichotomies between the researcher and the researched, Self/Other, insider/outsider, native/foreign and home/away.